How nice that these goals were met today, Easter Sunday, smack dab in the season of spring and rebirth and new beginnings. Maybe that's why I'm hesitant to pronounce these challenges as done, met, checked off the list. Instead, I feel like I've learned a few things to carry me forward.
Not that I'm feeling all fired up, ready to take on the world. In my mind, spring is a gentle season, filled with pleasant birdsong, soft rains, breezes and buds just pushing out into the world. That's how I feel--tender nudges to make small but important changes. No raging like a hot summer thunderstorm here, barreling out of the gates with missions to accomplish. Lord knows, I've already got plenty of backlog on my to-do list at work and at home!
So what have I learned? On writing:
- It is hard to write. Hard to get thoughts down on paper in a way that makes sense and flows and says what I want them to say. Hard to know what to put in and what to leave out. Hard because what I may be feeling strongly about in the moment may not be appropriate for the forum I'm writing in. Hard because I'm ending sentences in prepositions, and that bothers my inner grammar police, but the proper way doesn't sound any better.
- I like getting feedback. I can be a feedback junkie...and I'm not sure that's a good thing. Sometimes it should just be enough to get it down and put it out there. Which leads me to my next thought--
- I feel uncomfortable using a blog as a diary. I really enjoy sharing stories of my past, little snippets of activity like birthdays and baking. And while some of the best feedback I got was on posts in which I bared my feelings...it felt kinda weird putting them out there for such a broad audience. Maybe it's because this is really my blog about reading, and this challenge brought out much more that that. I'll consider having a separate blog if I attempt this challenge next year.
- Writing is hard. Or have I said that already?
Lessons on meditating:
- Ten minutes is a long time to focus on being still and thought-less. It helped to have a daily mantra to bring me back from intruding thoughts, but the thoughts kept coming.
- I really look forward to my meditation time in the morning. I've always felt kind of guilty for spending most of my pre-dawn alone time playing games on Facebook. Meditating for some of that time feeds my spirit, instead of exercising my brain cells (my excuse for game playing). Since I've heard that both can ward off signs of aging, I'm going to try and continue my meditation practice before squeezing in those rounds of Candy Crush.
- Having someone else--or something else--time the meditation is awesome. I've had a folder full of timed meditations on my desktop for ages...I'm finally going to get around to using them!
So there are no earth-shattering conclusions, no major breakthroughs coming out of this month. Just a nod to myself for stepping up to these challenges, and a plan to take what I've learned and move forward with it, one babystep at a time.